Shqueee.

My star is so itchy >.<

Starting dose is 50, I was prescribed 25…. But now I have to cut those pills in half…. And I’m still so nauseous. The only relief I get is when I don’t take these pills.

I had a dream that I was hired to be in skrillex’s tour… Which was like a dub step themed cirque du solei XD but not really. I was a background dancer and was like whoa! There were bungee harnesses for the grand finale and silks and i was one of the four soloists. Goodness gracious I was souped. All the dancers were tattooed and pierced but dressed up like traditional dancers. Ahhh I can’t even explain how awesome it was…!!!! Sonny individually told us all what he thought of our performance. He told me “chill out a bit, you’re stealing the attention away from the others” lol!!!!! I was like “i am thrilled to be here…so I’m sorry and I’ll try” lmao!!!

He thinks he is a saint, he thinks he is a man.
He’s not a hero, because he never tries to save
And he wears a big man’s suit, but he is barely a big man.

I went to pick up my things today.  My dad’s wife packed all of my things in boxes and put them out in the driveway.  My piano.  Outside.  In the driveway.  I’d like to say that she’s lucky that my piano wasn’t damaged or stolen, but she is far from lucky.  I feel sorry for her.  She is digging her own grave.  And the fires that await her… well, she’ll know how unlucky she is.  It is so funny because I won’t have to do a damn thing.  God, karma, whatever entity you believe in, will be far from merciful.   

Dan took me to NYC for my birthday, it was a day I’ll never forget. (I’ll post once I have my laptop back and the pictures are available)
Today Sarah and her boyfriend tristan took me to six flags… It was so much fun… But now I feel the switch.

So I woke up yesterday and everything was great, as usual.  I spent the night with Sarah K… trying to savor our time since she’s moving to Vermont.  My mom’s phone call ruined everything.

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